Water Ch. 176 - I Come To Make My Donation

 

 

Blissfully woken up, Jon looks down at what was giving him such pleasure, what was making him so horny. 

Water Ch. 175 - Like The Poet Needs The Pain

 

The two of them are laying in bed, making small talk, since they both were super tired.  Beth wanted to be held in the security of his arms and she made sure he did that.  And he definitely didn't mind.  He was happiest with her in his arms. 

 

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Water Ch. 174 - I'm Not In Kansas Anymore

 

"You know everything about her, but don't know her at all." Is what Beth heard when Jon's phone rang. The lyrics caught her attention and Jon's voice made her ask, "What song is that?"

Water Ch. 173 - A Fresh Start?

"Texting right now, really?  It's that important that it can't wait?" he asks her, with a tone that shows her that he's pissed.  "Who are you texting?"

Water Ch. 172 - I Can Realize The Danger When Foregiveness Fades Away

 

"What was going on with you earlier?" he asks her, pouring her the first glass of wine she has had since she found out she was pregnant.

 

Water Ch. 171 - I Just Want You To Know

"Hey gorgeous, I was wondering when you were going to call, what did the doctor say?" Jon says as he answers his cell phone.  Beth can hear the smile in his voice.

Water Ch. 170 - She's Your Child, Make Her Mine

 

 

 

Beth turns on her heel, shocked that Richie caught her.  "Richie, I am so sorry.  I just wanted to clean up a little bit for you."  She holds out the notebook, "Is this about me?"

Water Ch. 169 - I'm Counting The Lines

The Bon Jovi jet lands at the executive airport of LAX and Beth starts to deplane, but not before Jon can hug her and kiss her.  He asks her, "Are you sure you don't want me to go to the doctor with you?  I don't play until tomorrow night."

Water Ch. 168 - There's No Place Too Far

 

 

"Hey, what are you doing out here?  It's freezing!"  Jon says to Beth as he finds her on the river bank bench.  It was a crisp fall afternoon, with a hint of winter in the air. 

Water Ch. 167 - Through These Dark Clouds, You Are The Light

Beth didn't want to get into the limousine.  She didn't want to go to the cemetery.  It was a beautiful fall morning and there was a calm in the air.  Jon, the kids and her are in the limo in the front of the procession.  They had no idea how many cars were lined up on the streets to follow them or how many fans lined both sides of the street and part of the route to the cemetery. 

The kids were quiet, Beth thought that maybe they could feel the tension and the sadness.  She wanted to interact, she wanted to break the silence, but she couldn't.  She was taking her babies to be one with the earth and nothing felt good about that.  She is having a hard time with the reality of it all.  Jon has her hand and gives it a gentle squeeze.  She looks at him and winks, trying to put on a happy face.  She turns her head to go back to looking out the window.  The people along the streets with flowers and signs that say Our Deepest Sympathies, We'll Be There For You Jon and various other things.  Beth wants to look through them, Beth wants it all to be over.  The funeral procession was reported to be five miles long.

Pulling up to the site, Beth sees that it is surrounded by all the flowers that were at the house.  There are a minimal number of chairs, next to the small hole that had been dug into the ground.  The mound of dirt had been covered by artificial grass and the site was quite pretty.  When the car stopped, the driver got out and ran to open Beth's door.  She waved him away, "I'm not ready.  Thank you."  And he closed the door.  He then went to the other side and let the kids out.  The kids hop out and they were greeted by and taken over by grandma.  Jon and Beth remained in the car, while the guests found themselves a chair and took a seat. 

Two men from the cemetery had removed the casket from the limo and placed it on ground next to the hole.  Beth looked out the window and seen that and she was suddenly sick to her stomach.  Jon could see that she is having trouble.  With his hand on her leg, he says, "We have to do this babe.  We need to let them go.  They are angels now.  They need to be put to rest."

"I can't."

"Yes you can."

"Jon, no I can't."

"I'll be right there next to you.  We are surrounded by our family and friends, those that love us.  They will help us get through this.  But we need to do this for Rowan and Spencer."

Beth looks out the window and sees that all of the chairs are taken, with the exception of theirs.  It was standing room only and there were many that were standing.  Beth could see the Governor, the Mayor, Sister Mary, the band, Matt and Tony and even a few people from Deloitte.  She smiled when she seen Tammy.  She wondered when she would see Tammy.  And as she looked closer, in the back, tucked out of the way, she seen Amanda.  Her best friend, oh she was so happy to see her.

Mustering the courage, she grabs her handkerchief out of her purse and exits the back of the limo.  Jon is right next to her, they are arm in arm.  As soon as everyone seen them coming, all went quiet. 

Taking their places, Jon and Beth sat down and Jon gave the signal for the priest to begin the service.  He had been given information from Dawn, Jon's assistant, about the passing of the twins and he performed a beautiful service.  Her christened the girls and sent their souls to go be with God, to watch over mom and dad, as well as their siblings. 

It was Jon who spoke next.

I stand before you as a dad, not a rock star and I stand before you a broken man.  Spencer and Rowan were a wish, but two came true.  Beth and I were thrilled when we learned that we were expecting, and as you can imagine - that thrill was doubled when we learned that they were twins.  These little girls are with God now, and it doesn't lessen our pain or even ease our grief at this moment.  We can only imagine the happiness that they would have brought to the world, with the precious smiles and hearts full of innocence, now we place them in the hands of God and know that they are safe.  As parents, you can never prepare for a loss like this, you can only go through it as you go.  There is no wrong way, or right way; it all comes down to the hearts way.  Beth and I grieve the loss of these two beautiful babies and will remember them as we see them now.  Holding one another, sharing a love and a bond that even death can't break.

When we found out that they had passed, I flew to Beth's side as fast as I could.  She was in LA and I was here.  We spent four of the longest days of our lives together, and alone.  We made it through that, and we'll make it through this.  She is an amazing woman and I am honored, wait no, I am lucky to have her in my life.  She handled this whole heartbreaking situation with such grace and dignity and I know that if it wasn't for her, I never would have made it through. 

For four days, she walked around with Rowan and Spencer in her belly, knowing they were gone  - yet she continued to do every thing that she could have for them.  She had her moments and some were very hard, but she pulled threw and drug me through with her.  She was my rock.

Rowan and Spencer have left their mother and I cracked, but we are not broken.  We will honor their memory and our love for them every day in everything that we do.  And we ask that you do the same.  These little girls came into our life for a reason and they also left our lives for a reason...

And he steps down.  Stopping at the casket, he leans over and kisses his daughters goodbye.  The tears that fall from his cheek to their cheeks, he leaves there.  Wanting them to take a piece of him with them. 

When he sits, there isn't a dry eye in sight and he could hear his mother sobbing, two chairs over from them.  He looked at Beth the entire time that he spoke and with each word he said, another tear drop would fall.  His heart breaks a little more each time he sees her cry. 

The Priest stands back up and asks, "Is there anyone else that would like to speak?"   Looking over the crowd that sat before him.  Stephanie Rose stood up, and made her way in front of everyone. 

"I would like to say something."  And the priest steps out of her way.  Stephanie is dressed in a little black dress and she has a red rose in her hand.  She looks at her dad and Beth and says, "Dad, Beth - Rowan and Spencer are with God now and I know they are watching us.  They don't want to see us all cry because they are gone, they want us to celebrate that they were here.  Please don't cry, please." Holding up the rose, that's tied with Baby's Breath and a ribbon, she tells them, "The lady at the flower shop said this is Baby's Breath, when you see this, make a wish and blow it up to heaven, remembering Spencer Rose and Rowan Carol.  Don't be sad.  They will catch your wish."  Beth can't keep her cry quite anymore.  She starts to ball and Jon puts an arm around her, pulling her tight.  With her head down and her hanky on her face, she feels a hand touch her left shoulder.  Startled by that, she looks to her left and sees Stephanie.  Stephanie bends over and gives Beth a hug, adding her dad into it.  She whispers to Beth, "Thank you."   And that shocks Beth.  Thank you?

Beth looks to the young woman and asks, "Thank you?  for what?"

"For giving me two beautiful sisters."  Jon grabs Stephanie and has her sit on his lap.  Daddy's little girl started to cry, because she was finally seeing her dad cry. 

Matthew and Anthony lowered the casket into the ground, placing their nieces in their final resting place.  Both when were torn up and crying, but they knew they needed to do this for Jon, and for Beth.  Once they are lowered and the ribbons are removed, it's time to place flowers and fill the grave.  Everyone is waiting for Jon and Beth to stand.  Beth is unable to.  Between the tears and the weakness that she feels, she doesn't want to get up.  She whispers to Jon, "Tell them to go ahead.  I'm not ready."  She knows that the custom of filling the grave dates back to long ago, and it's symbolizes that I love you enough, I buried you with my own hands - not leaving you to strangers. "I'm not ready." 

Jon gives the crowd the signal to go ahead and pay their respects.  And they did.  One by one, they all stopped at Jon and Beth, offering condolences and support.  Some threw flowers into the hole and some dropped in handfuls of dirt.  When everyone was gone, it was just Jon and Beth.  Sitting there, while the cemetery workers picked up the chairs and placed the flowers in position, so they could cover the hole once Jon and Beth left. 

"Babe, we gotta go.  It's getting late."

Beth looks at him and hasn't one thought.  Her mind is blank, she doesn't know what to do.  He takes her hand and stands up, giving her a gentle pull.  She stands up and is a little wobbly.  She's been sitting for hours, and no food in her stomach.  Jon sees that she is unsteady and puts his arm around her, "Let's get you home and into bed."  And he tries to lead her away from the grave.  She's like lead, she doesn't budge.

"I have to say goodbye." she whispers.  She kneels down on the graveside, with the rose that Stephanie had - tears streaming down her face.  She gently drops the rose into the hole and tells the girls, "Your daddy never let me say goodbye to him and he never said goodbye to me, we always say until next time.  So to you, my beautiful angels, until next time.  I hope I see you in my dreams, because you will be in my every thought and prayer.  You will always be in my heart and I can't wait until the day that I see your smiling faces.  You are in God's hands now.

Jon bends over and puts his hands on her shoulders, helping her to stand up.  He could hardly contain his own grief, and to hear her talk so calm and so at peace, made his heart bleed even more.  Why would God do this to her?  She deserved to be a mother, she would have been a great mother. 

They walk to the limo, his arm around her and her head on his shoulder.  She kept looking back with quiet tears, and she thought that she was the only one that could hear her heart break, with each step they took away from the grave.  "We're going to get through this Beth."

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Water Ch. 166 - Lock The Door, Leave The World Outside

 

 

With Jon at her side, Beth knew that she was going to get through this day; but only if Jon is at her side. 

Water Ch. 165 - Holding On, To Never Say Goodbye

"You need to eat something, babe."   Jon says to her as she rolls over in bed. 

Water Ch. 164 - If All That We Got Is Each Other

"Today is a sad day in the music world.  We just learned that rocker Jon Bon Jovi and his girlfriend Beth Ann Adams, tragically lost their twin daughters, Rowan and Spencer yesterday; months before their expected due date. 

 

Water Ch. 163 - Wild Is The Wind That Takes Me Away From You

 

The anesthesia took a while to wear off and Beth was having trouble waking up. 

Water Ch. 162 - There'd Be Nothing But Smiles, Nothing But Love

***I just reread this and teared up myself.  That's funny.***

 

 

 

With the bang of the door, Jon could hear Beth putting her Ipod and water bottle on the kitchen counter.  She had grabbed the towel off the table and wiped her brow, walking through the house looking for Jon.  She finds him in the living room with her laptop at his side.

That's What The Water Made Me: Water Ch. 162 - Dear Jon

That's What The Water Made Me: Water Ch. 162 - Dear Jon:     It must be very difficult

Water Ch. 162 - Dear Jon

 

 

It must be very difficult

Water Ch. 161 - Only God Would Know The Reason

Beth wakes up like she has many times before, alone.  And wondering where Jon is.  Rubbing her eyes and yawning big, she is quickly remind of her ongoing nightmare.  Her bedroom is full of sunlight and Beth welcomes anything happy.  I wonder where he is? 

Water Ch. 160 - I Wasn't There When You Were Happy

 

 

He walked in and found her crying, sitting in the hallway, just outside the nursery door.  She couldn't bring herself to go in there when she got home. 

Water Ch. 159 - I Swear I'd Sell My Soul To Be A Hero For You

 

Weeks went by and there wasn't any communication between Jon and Beth.  She was so heart broken, she put her home on the market, changed her cell phone number and even quit her job.  It was her intention to be unreachable to Jon.  It was now her life, her rules.  She had babies to prepare for and she didn't want any more set backs or upsets between now and their due date. 

Water Ch. 158 - I Ain't Gonna Love You

 

Water Ch. 157 - For A Face That He Dreams of Night After Night

"No Beth, I am not going back to Dorothea.  I'm going back to my children."  He stands up and starts to pace.  She's sitting on the step, looking up at him.  Her thoughts are very unclear.

Water Ch. 156 - When It Hurts; Breathe

 

They both are sitting on the counter, with the plate of mango chicken between them.  They are picking and talking, about any and everything, avoiding what they need to discuss.  He keeps looking at her, looking for a sign that she really missed him.  He knows that she missed him and he hopes that she knows that her missed her, cause right now felt right.  He pulls off a piece of the cold chicken and feds it to her.  She gently bites down on his finger, and that scares him a little bit.  She laughed so hard, chicken came out of her mouth.  Still laughing, she says "I'm sorry, I couldn't resist." 

Water Ch. 155 - Can I Be Happy Now?

 

 

 

The urge to wake her up is almost more than I can handle.  She is so beautiful laying there, in the tank top that she knows I love.  There she is, the mother of my twins and the biggest pain in my ass. 

Water Ch. 154 - Baby, Are You Okay?

"Hey." she says to him, when he answers his phone.  "Am I the only one in New York, right now?"

Water Ch. 153 - I Never Wanted The Stars

Beth's plane landed at 1:00pm, and her rental car was waiting for her when she arrived at the counter. 

 

Water Ch. 152 - Kings Ransom In Dimes

 

 

Jon put all of the kids to bed before he headed back to his office, to take care of some bills and other things that required his attention.  Powering up his laptop, he looks over his shoulder at the picture of Beth and Romeo.  He smiles a half smile and suddenly misses her even more. 

Water Ch. 151 - When It Hurts Just To Talk

 

 

Communication between Beth and Jon was non existent for almost three weeks, until she decided to send him an email just hours before a scheduled ultrasound. 

Water Ch. 150 - I'll Take This One On The Chin

 

 

The night was long for Jon,  restlessness and anxiety kept him up, tossing and turning.  Throughout the night he ran all possible scenarios through his mind and cannot come up with the answer that Beth did.  How does anything that went on or happened equal up to walking away?  His math doesn't match hers, and he's exhausted trying to figure it out.  He understands that they have been through alot and he hates that it's all happened, but what did she really want?  A life of seclusion, in bubble wrap?  He's a rock star, a man of importance - he has things that he has to do.  Laying on her side of the bed, he looks out the window and watches the sun rise, through some trees, over the ocean.  It's a beautiful start to the morning, and the end of him trying to sleep.  He tells himself that he'll go to bed early.